Im so fucking fat and ugly and i need a bullet, Sick of living
I'm a Total Loser Because...
everyone hates me and says im not so wise even tho i thnbk i am vry wise. and when i invite them out they alwaqys say there to busy and then i cri and cut myself but not really but i put tomato source on my arm nd pretend and no one cares bc im such a loser :,(((
Im very careless....i hate it.I lost my office key and I lost my thumb drive that have all my report to submitt this Friday.
If i lost my job...how am i going to feed my children.I'm getting paranoid every each day.
I owe bank alot of money...and my saving can last me 3 month.
Why i am like this......
Why i so careless
Sometimes I wonder are there any other wimps around there, where all the girls in the class has bigger hands and forearms than you, being pushed around and not doing anything about it... being a total loser while everyone calls u skinny and cant accomplish anything in LIFE.
I am such a loser....I have done practically nothing with my life...To start with...throughout my life I have been a loner, I didn't have any friends....I sucked with girls all my school...no Gf forget even a female friend....I highly regret wasting my teens and early twenties in petty issues and with useless people...I hardly roam around with 2-3 friends at a time... And never had a group with whom I could enjoy , explore or do stuff together....all day I sit in my home searching net, eating food and sleeping...I left engineering college after 2 years due to depression and social anxiety.... I know I am not dumb...I am a private tutor ...and currently pursuing a normal graduation degree after quitting btech....point is that I feel so empty from inside that I don't found worth in doing anything....people ask what I am doing currently and I have to say that I am pursuing 2nd year college despite being 21 years old...I wasted hell lot of time.....I hear of my cousins doing great with their life...getting hefty packages in great companies going abroad . and here I am ...sitting in my home. Lonely and unemployed ......but most importantly I want friends. I can do wonder with my life. I have the guts to earn and I have been a good student. Even I get appreciation as a teacher .. I am sensitive....but life is so boring that I don't feel doing anything. Instead I just want to sleep and wonder ....all day I do over thinking and creating my own useless philosophies about life....I know when a person does nothing. He either feels useless or considers himself a great thinker....but we are on earth to do something...to explore ...to make mistakes...and not to be a burden on society. .....I don't have any disorder. I come from a. Good family. My problem is also not very typical. But am so fed up and tired with my life of being a loner....I want to spend good time with healthy people on a regular basis....I know I am only responsible for my life...but I don't know where to start...I think I am too late. People start socialising partying in their early teens....I had been too a sweet boy....I tried to change all that in my latest college..girls do become friends...but all that stays for a very short while... .I feel successfull but hardly for a week. A lt the end I always feel like a loser
i, am vk totally confused about my future , i done several deploma course i just completed my graduation,
but still i cannot identify that what is the aim of my life,, my parent laugh on my failur. sometime i found myself funny when i looked into the mirror,,i fucked my carrier by my self,,, but friends i am happy now because i found that iam not the only one....hahhah
Ive been sitting here for 2 years wondering when life will come around for me. I fucking hate everything except the american dream. I want luxury things, i do. But im a piece of shit that doesnt do anything when will i get it. And why the fuck me? I have no friends, no GF lol who the fuck will wanna date a guy like me that doenst have anything going for himself at age 21. No job, no school, and no dream. Might as well donate my body to science put it to some good use. Im not a bad person at all I have the biggest heart in my whole family. I sit here hoping my time will come to find my dream, but I feel like I need approval for anything i wanna do. Not to be judged but why the fuck does it matter... at the end I will still be a piece of shit to people. Been used by my friends, family, by my own piece of shit dad. I am in debt. I have no idea how the fuck will i pay it off. Just got a parking ticket couple weeks ago because my shit ass didnt want to get up and move it becasue i was to tired and didnt care. Great paid 100 for that. Thanks wells Fargo for your credit card. More debt yay. Cant tell between when somethings good happening or it will become a disaster. Im skinny as fuck, no girl likes to date me they just leave because im skinny maybe, idk. I AM LITERALLY A MOVING SHIT. I SHOULD JUST MAKE A MOVIE ABOUT ME BEING LITERALY A MOVING SHIT. Now staring the life of a moving shit and how the day goes by for him.
Yes I Am a big time loser....n what does a loser do?..well I can tell u that very well...he sleeps , eats and watch porn all day...masturbates...think about all the littlest by chance sum happier (or seem to b good moments in his eyes ) and wonder why he couldn't live those moments or make something out of it...he thinks of all those times he missed the opportunity to do or get something...to save or move forward a relationship....to get back a friend.....to be more wild when be was comparatively young ...to enjoy his youth to the fullest...he jus thinks and thinks and repeatedly calls himself a loser as there hardly much he can do about it now...he has no future as he is aimless...he has gained some pounds as all he do is eating unhealthy food and no physical activity as he wants to sleep and cry...he doesn't have real friends..he doesn't have a Gf..and a girl if by accident seems to come in his life...he is later left in the middle of nowhere in that relationship.....he has no friends to call or celebrate..watch a movie..eat together....play together ...or even fantasize together...the worst thing is that whole world seems to be ahead of him...his money is of no use as he can't spend it judiciously or waste it in purposeless things as he is in depression and frustration...he has ni clue or any idea about his life...he has no vision. And his life has become monotonous....sleep for 15 hours ...wake up and eat ...watch porn and again sleep for 15 hours....he has perhaps lost se haor too due to high voltage tension and over thinking for no reason...he is in stress for no reason...his sadness and unhappiness has no value coz he hasn't even a solid reason to cry ...he has spent his life doing nothing and jus living on a minute hope that someday some miracle would happen..till den he has found a new activity of searching about other losers in loserforum as apart from being sad , unhappy , useless ,spineless ,unworthy, unsuccessfull , miserable , broken , purposeless , a shit of piece....he has hugely become a saddistic retard
i am total loser because , i am a nice guy who have toxic parents so makes me on trap to being loser. i am 22 years old no job (since junior school always bullied and just nice guy loser), I AM VIRGIN never had touch girl skin or kiss, i have not try approach girl to get laid, because im too low self esteem, my penis is 4 inch, ironically im tall and handsome but im looked dumb with big belly fat (my dad treat me like 7 years old to eat as much as i should eat, and my dad happy if im fat and he always plays me like a funny doll, its hard to diet i cant control my life im in trap). then my mom makes me stiff to talk to people, cause she always rule my life and im so afraid to be myself, so people are like disgusting with my face when im talk cause im too serious in life, i have no friend in life since i was kid im just in home watch tv until now, never talk in day, my mouth is stiff beacuse my routine.
I feel like a loser all my life. what make me different from other losers will be, i have a lot of good chances and supports in my life but i never take them.i just sit around and doing nothing and feeling bad about myself all day. couple years ago i came to America to study abroad but I failed. I knew I couldnt graduate bcoz the classes and life are too damn hard for me but I am too afraid to tell my mum who is a total control freak. finally i graduated from a CC but not from my original school(a very good university) after 6 fucking years.....and wasted tons of tuiations.....now I back to China, my city(which is a very big one, personally think its better than a lot of American ones),a very moden city just like Chicago/NYC, with tons of oppotunities here and I'm speaking perfect English(of crouse it's not perfect, just compared to many other Chinese) and my parents own couple apartments and I'm living in one of them.Sounds like I can totally make a good life here(altho I have an AA but since it's an american degree it still looks good enough)but I JUST FUCKING HATE MY LIFE and think myself as a big time loser. Whatever nice things I have are given from my parents who care about me more than anything else in the world(which is a big pressure) and I have nothing to offer to them or anyone else. I dont have a BF either.I'm depressed from time to time and always doing nothing(reading comics and tv all the time)to run away from the reality.meantime my parents still pays for everything for me and I dont have courage to leave them.They dont want me to leave either(it's a culture thing, different from America. In US ppl think young ppl who lives w parents r losers but in China young ppl ,specially girls are encourged to live w parents, untill they get married) so I'm not very motivated to move out. I have a job and it's not too bad ,boss even send me overseas for business trips but I dont like it at all. Looks like my life is ok but I feel like HELL every single day. i'm afraid to explore outside world bcoz I'm afraid of leaving my mum behind but I also afraid of missing out my life...... I dont have a point anymore sorry......the most improtant thing is,I feel like a big time loser. I feel like that if anyone else was me ,have all these resources,they wont waste them or just sitting around, they can live a much much better life.