hi i ma 26 year old I used to be very fat in my teen age everyone use to bully me and make fun of me so I thought i was being bullied because i am fat so tried very hard to lose my weight and i lost 15 kg weight, problem still not solved I do not know why people after meeting me stares at me and laugh at me some times I stand in front of the mirror and see is it something wrong with my face
I decided to became doctor and started preparing for entrance test I tried It for 9 years and still no result there are various reason for that, I told to my parents need electricity for studying then they said we do not have money to buy inverter for you after when i quitted the dream of becoming a doctor they installed the inverter. In my city there is no proper guidance is available to academically week students so the person without guidance is use less, my class mate with very high score in his high school and +2 is a surgeon so I was constantly in search of right guidance so deicide to seek the help of google and YouTube but you need at least 2mbs speed for that but I use 2g sim card as my parents told me that they do not money for broadband and to buy new computer but when I quitted the preparation I have broad band connection all the lectures recorded, laptop and 1tb hard drive but now do not have time to listen to lectures as I am now evolved in a diploma course so that at least I can get a job to support my livelihood
In b/w all this hustle my dad lost his job so I can no more continue my preparation
even though I have every thing. One day my student came to me he is rich person he told me that he is going to take admission in medical college by giving donation
that thing really broke my heart. Above all I do not like to do social interaction to much I am not at all interested in meeting any girl cause that thing also went bad each n every time I tried no matter how hard.
My mom always scolds me even if I go meet my very very limited friends I think she enjoys in scolding me I feel very helpless I do not have money and I am least liked by any one and ugly looking
I want to die a peaceful death